Name
Brynn Alise Foundation
Description
My mom instilled in me my love of nature and wildlife. I grew up with a tiny beach cottage at what is now Crystal Cove State Park in Orange County, California. We spent summers at our cottage when I was young and spent every day on the sand and in the ocean. She and my grandma taught me the name of every seashell as I collected prized possessions each morning on our walks for my collection that I still have. She was a science teacher and imparted her knowledge and love of nature to me. She taught me about whales, dolphins, and all the creatures in the ocean; she taught me about sea birds, plants, and flowers. We also spent a lot of time in national parks, especially Yosemite. There, she taught me about the ecosystems around me and the mountain wildlife. I would not have my passion for wildlife and conservation without her loving influence in my life.
I captured this image the evening I said goodbye to my mom in late August 2020. I cannot see this image without thinking about her and the grief that I still have. I chose to go to the Newport Pier that night instead of my beloved Crystal Cove because the memories there were just too painful that first night. I stood at the edge of the waves with my tripod in the water and tears silently streaming down my face. It was cathartic, and no one was paying any attention to me. It felt strange to be in a sea of people but still so alone. I grieved and started the first step in my long healing process. The sunset that night was glorious, and I could feel her presence as several pods of brown pelicans passed. They were her favorite bird and an endangered species when I was growing up. She used to get so excited any time we would spot one. Now, they fly by in pod after pod, and seeing them brings me such joy. I am so thankful I chose to pick up my camera that night. I will always have these images as reminders of the joy she brought and the pain I feel in losing her. This piece is dedicated to her.